I'm one of those people that always makes the place messier when I try to clean.

6

Class, study, sleep, repeat.

5

So, when I said I have 3 exams this week, I actually meant 4. (I mean, i just found out about the 4th) So... my already boring life is going to be even more boring for the next few days. But hey, next week I have 3 days off for thanksgiving. So, that's good.

I'm also carless. And have been for the last few days. My car, which was going into the shop for $300 or so is now costing $2000.

Brock Davis

http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/26A8mO/www.behance.net/Gallery/Make-Something-Cool-Every-Day-2009/171640

I'm sad today. I just don't feel like doing anything at all. I got some bad news last night, and I know it's stupid. I guess I was just excited that, even though he's famous or whatever, there was someone who actually interested me for once. Someone that from every aspect I could see finally seemed perfect. Perfect for me, I mean. That gave me hope that there was more people like that out there. But, I was wrong. And now, I don't know. I just feel like there's not anyone out there for me.

another f'ed up photo I kind of like.

4th

I missed yesterday already. I didn't really do anything worth talking about. I think this time of the year is a bad time to do one of these, since I never do anything. I'm still sick and got some bad news last night, i'm kind of heart broken about but whaatever.

It's a really gloomy day, today.
That's all the way around.

The photo is the hot chocolate my dad made my brother. Gave it to him in that, haha.

I had a date with destiny, but destiny broke my heart.

11:11

Again I feel sick. I don't know why. It's nothing specific, I just feel sick all over. Like I can't move. Bleh bleh blehhh.

My dad got ran through, which means he didn't come home today and my car is in the shop so I was stuck driving everyone around in the Cougar, which is a terrible car.

But, yeah, I don't really feel like typing because I don't feel well.

The picture is just of me in my closet, because I cleaned it out today.

Day 2

My World Religions professor has canceled class again, for the fifth time. After saying, and I quote, "I promise to attend every class for the rest of the semester." Now, I'm not complaining, I'm just saying. I do, however, hope he feels better. But, because of this, I now have 3 exams in a 2 day period next week, and I don't appreciate that. But, whatever, i'll live.

Nowww, I have no idea what to do today. Studying will be on the list, of course. Not too sure what to take a picture of for the day.

Someone who's email is "buttok" emailed me today. So, that was exciting.

--I ended up feeling really sick today so I did nootthiinng. Looked at some furniture and laid around. No studying or anything.

It was really nice again today. I was able to wear shorts, in november. NOVEMBER. IN. WISCONSIN. It was awesome. But yeah, I'm going to watch Toy Story 3 and go to bed.

I took a picture of the cat i'm watching with my dad for the day, cause that really was the highlight of my day. She's cute but she's terribly shy.

365

I'm attempting one of those take-a-picture-every-day-blah-blah things. I definitely won't make it very long so, we'll see.

Today, I was sick so I didn't really do anything worth taking a picture of. So I took a picture of my outfit because I like it, and I spent most of the day worrying about my dress being too short. My mom bought the dress for me the other day. I was excited because I really wanted the dress, and she doesn't usually buy me clothes, so it was unexpected. Yeah, it's taken in the bathroom. Yeah, I look super short. Yeah, I don't have a real camera. But, whatever.

My day consisted on waking up at 9:20, 20 minutes before my class starts. I forgot to set my alarm. So, I decided not go since it takes me 20 minutes to drive there, find a place to park, and walk to class.

I spent most of the day watching Paranormal State on netflix, making blog entries, and looking for seasons of my favorite shows on ebay.

I went to lunch at the bar with my dad and brother, tended to my grandma's cat and took my little brother to best buy to buy the new Kid Cudi album (which i'm still waiting to put onto my itunes). Cleaned, and continued to watch Paranormal State. That was my day. Seriously.

It was absolutely beautiful outside today. 65 degrees in November seems a little crazy to me, but i'll take it. I got to spend some time playing in the leaves with Rosco. I'm definitely going to miss days like this when winter comes.

"Being single is getting over the illusion that there is somebody out there to complete you, and taking charge of your own life."

(post secret)

my heart beats crazy fast.

I've realized 99.9% (Estimated) of these posts are extremely negative. I'd like to point out that I don't really think I'm that negative. Actually, I'm very positive and easy going. I think this blog is just kind of my way of getting out any sad or angry emotions I have, and that's usually with song lyrics. I think I like that no one knows of this blog really, so everything I write is quite private, but someone could find it if they wanted to. I feel like it would surprise someone to find this, and read my posts. Also, most of the posts are song lyrics. I think the sadder song lyrics are better written and more creative therefore I'm attracted to them.

Classroom Rant

I really don't understand people that go to class and just sit there. The whole hour. Have their notebook out, but don't take any notes except maybe, MAYBE, what the professor writes on the board. Why not take notes? Do you really think you're going to just remember everything he spoke about? Is it more entertaining to just sit there bored the whole hour? Do your really think that nothing he spoke of for the whole hour will be on the exam? Why even come to class, when he doesn't take attendance anyway?

Also, unrelated but very important, why do I always attract the weird people in the class? Not that there's anything wrong with being weird. We all know how weird I am, but it's the annoying people. Or the adults. There's always an old/middle-aged women in one of my classes and they always, always, always sit by me. I guess it's good that parents like me and everything but you're making it very hard for me to make friends. I can't hang out with middle-aged women on weekends! Gahh blah blah. I'm just going to watch some Paranormal State with my dog.

I like this picture. I look like a smashed, cross-eyed, lesbian but I still like it.

Addiction

I always have to be addicted to something. Right now it's New Super Mario Bros for Wii. I don't know why I get like this, but I can't stop playing. Whenever I play a game or something that has an end goal I can't stop playing until I've beaten it. Any free time I have I play this game. I've rented it twice now. I'm getting blisters on my fingers. We all know my addiction to Farmville, and that game isn't even fun. But there's something to work towards. I guess it's better than drugs.

gonna drop the world

I got ice in my veins, blood in my eyes
Hate in my heart, love in my mind
I seen nights full of pain, days of the same
You keep the sunshine, save me the rain
I search but never find, hurt but never cry
I work and forever try, but I'm cursed so never mind
And it's worse but better times seem further and beyond
The top gets higher, the more that I climb
The spot gets smaller and I get bigger
Call this bullshit, it made me strong mother fucker

So I pick the world up and I'm a drop it on your fuckin' head, yeahh!
And I could die now rebirth mother fucker
Hop up in my spaceship and leave Earth
Mother fucker I'm gone

kid cudi says everything i've ever wanted to

I guess if I was borin they would love me more
Guess if I was simple in the mind
Everything would be fine

But my mind is all crazy, crazy, crazy...
They got me thinkin I aint human,
Like I came in from above, above, above...
Feelin like a airplane in the sky
But then they say I'm crazy, crazy, crazy...
They got me thinkin I aint human,
Like I came in from above, above, above...
Feelin like a bird sittin high high

All I do is try to make it simple
The ones that make it complicated
Never get congratulated
I'm somethin different in all aspects

The type to get hurt
But that's the past tense

Listen Good
I don't have nobody
But what I might feel all the sounds of sanity
Hoping what I hear, loops itself continuasly
Then I won't be afraid
No No


Soaring through paridise when I'm closing my eyes


Look at me
You tell me
Just what you see
Am I, someone whom, you may love, or enemy
Am I speaken for, you and yours, or someone else
I need some answers


My world turns
Try without an igloo
Cold cold world wasn't fit for me at, oh
Look at where I stand at


Why must it feel so right when I know that it's wrong, it's wrong
When will I ever learn from the words from my songs

I'll be up up and away
Up up and away
Cause in the end they'll judge me any so whatever