well sure as shit, I made a mistake.
kept looking forward on paths sideways...

I want someone to love me for everything I am

the dirtier the sound, the best I breathe
I tried to do it all for you, it didn't do anyhing for me

A window
An open tomb
The sun crawls across your bedroom
A halo
A waning moon
Your last breath moving through you

As everything, everything ends

craziest dream everyones really dead

I KNOW THAT YOU DON'T FEEL THE SAME

You're waking up
A part of me i've never known
And i've never felt
So invincible
What took you so far away?

You're lost for tonight again
That's what you wanted?
Your arms to your side again..

Just take away the words i say
Cause i know
That you don't feel the same
Just go and say
What's in your head
And i won't try to stop you

You hold the rights i'll never own
And i've never felt
So alien
Don't tear us apart again

What is the use of it
We're OK, it's nothing
It's all chemistry of a car crash

And i won't try so you'll stay
This time
I won't try
And i won't change
This time i won't try
To stop you

There's not much you can do today to make things different, so just let it go.

Was my horoscope for the day.

so perfect.

I wish I knew how people saw me.

What they felt about me.

I never thought I'd get married.

I'm too weird.
it's just not for me.
I've never dated anyone for longer than 3 months.
no one can handle me.

then i met you.
and you made sense.
you were everything i could ever want,
that i didnt know i want.
and nowyoure gone.

I am emptier than I've ever been.

I'd rather have

I would rather have a broken arm
than have my arms around you,
I would rather have a punctured lung
than waste my breath on you.
I would rather have a broken heart
than give up hope on you.

Lydia

it turns out i had a band on my itunes for over a year

that i never really listened to

but i did now, and their lyrics are

beautiful

the songs flow together to create a story

I always catch the clock, it's 11:11
and now you wanna talk
it's not hard to dream.
you'll always be my konstantine.
they'll never hurt you like I do.
no no no no no

this is to a boy who got into my head with all the pretty things he did
you know you keep me up in bed

this is to a boy who got into my head with all these fucked up things I did

did you know I miss you?
did you know I miss you?
did you know I miss you?
did you know I miss you?

...I miss you.

denver.

my collar bones are gone.

all that hard work for nothing.

dammit.